Endowment (Chapter Ten)

I once had a premonition of being endowed.
With one simple measure she's letting out.
And I know I'm stumbling where you run,
but this is only the beginning.

This conspiracy theory has me quite overwhelmed.
More true in my mind, well, proven now.
And I know I seem a loon for believing it,
but you couldn't understand.

I know I’m a monster, not just a man.
But I promise I've tried just as hard as I can.
I know sometimes it's harder to stand,
but you know the real me.

The one that's found when I've run out.
The one consumed and buried in doubt.
The one that's torn between two worlds
and the one that loves the real you.